Chapter Four: Sobbing
 
Sobbing has times and weeping has degrees: [1]
   
Weeps an orphan for the loss of father, but this Dervish’s (Ansaari) sobs are for a worse day (Day of Judgment).
 
Crying for one’s self is self-worship and arrogance, seeking an escape to find comfort and where there is love abating the comfort is the norm (and vice-a-versa).
 
Sobbing is a prerequisite for desire and excess of burning (heartache) in loss.
 
Lover rains upon the sorrow from the eyes and finds no moment in happiness.
 
Enrobes the gown of loving upon the eyes, attracting (with force) life and heart that perhaps affairs of love might ensue. [3]
 
No love for the one busied by life
No place for life where Beloved is aloft
 
In loving there is always a covenant to back
Agreed upon, either with this or with that
 
Mankind’s vision perpetually sobs because of side effects of creation’s Sifat (attributes)[4]. So the eyes of truth cries non–stop awaiting any news from the love (Beloved).
 
Weeping during a loss is bloodied tears, sobbing during a re-union that is the pure liquor (intoxicant) for a soul.
 
For Your love I cried a universe
The day I cried a little, a river wept
 
When the water runs out, crying blood
Once the blood runs out, tell me what to cry?
 
 


[1] Why would a Central Asian child prodigy teenager write with such rigor about crying? Because he smelled the fragrance made from light, Koran[53:42-45]:
 
42. That to thy Lord is the final Goal;
43. That it is He Who granteth Laughter and Tears;
44. That it is He Who granteth Death and Life;
45. That He did create in pairs, male and female

It is the Creator who draws the smile on your lips. Just the same way It was the Creator who created life and death and men and women. And just the same way It is the Creator the most Beloved of all multi-verse, who drains the tears from the squint of eyes.
 
Ansaari understands that this Creator did not create anything in vain, so the weeping and tears are not playthings.
 
There is deliberate purpose from the Beloved of the universe, why tears roll from our eyes.
 
[2] Arabic word ‘Mohaaq’ was used which means literally moonless which refers normally to end of a lunar month when the crescent is very thin almost not visible. In poetic terms it is used to mean concealment.
 
[3] Allah makes you cry and in that watery moment you take a break from the life that has brought you much loss and pain. In these most private moments you are indeed alone with your Creator the Beloved who is raining your eyes upon the field of sorrow in order for you to see It alone with no one and nothing in this world blocking your view.
 
And it cloaks your eyes with love so others are blocked to see you and when they see your tears, betray you and leave you alone with your most prized love the Creator.
 
So when you cry, Beloved is with you at the moment of most affection invited to spend time with the Sultan of Love.
 
[4] When you see the boy in this picture, tears comes to your eyes because there is mercy in your heart. That feeling of mercy is an attribute (Sifat) bestowed upon the Mankind by Allah the Most Merciful.
 
When someone did something arrogant and harsh to this child, again that arrogance is an attribute (Sifat) sent down by the Creator.



Background: Photo by Carol Guzy.


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