The Scolding
All that you seek, desire,
lack and love is with the
Beloved. You are the subject of Its scolding and reprove. All
conversations are
directed towards It so that the legend of Love is prolonged and an
interval of
time is dedicated for intimate and secret affair with the Beloved.
Bringing up
the past is wrong and complaining about the Beloved uncalled for.
Blame is for you, an
affliction caused by you and your
being. Because the lover has assumed a portion of Self, lost in his
Self by
arrogance and false assumptions. Therefore Beloved calls upon (the
lover) to
converse and commences the scolding. Sometimes lover ablaze and
sometimes
endures, sometimes beaming luminous and sometimes burning afire.
If lover is lowly and
humiliated Beloved says, “Be drunken”
and once drunken the Self says, “Be lowly”. If Self vanishes Beloved
then says,
“Subsist upon us”.
Each moment the lover boils
betwixt the flames of anguish
and affection until lover is unconscious of Self. And when the
pleasures of
conversing with the Beloved forgotten by the anguish and blame, again
coming
back to his own Self, the lover a thousand times roars and recites the
verse:
The fine lovers scold not with
such enormity
Each day saddle not the
stallion of betrayal and enmity
Slaughtering the lover but yet
stealing the hearts
Unfit for the madly in love
and devout lovers
End.
You saw in person, with your
stunned eyes and bewildered
heart and trembling body The Royal Majesty’s empowering beauty. You saw
the
Beloved of heavens and earth and you promised to love It, adore It and
in all
times and conditions stay loyal to It. Traversing the bridge of women
into this
life, sobbing with tears and moaning with screams reluctantly leaving
Beloved
behind and no matter how much you cried no going back on this bridge.
Beloved walks in front of you
but you see It not. Beloved
talks to you but you hear It not. Thus comes the woman you love much or
the
child
you adore madly or some object of affection you cannot live without. Be
aware!
These are traps. Once you come to believe that you have secured the
object of
your affection, Beloved pulls them away, they are suddenly gone with no
trace
as though they were never.
Burning midst the flames of
blame and anguish you suffer. In
this precise moment you are in conversation with the Beloved your
Creator.
Conversation is not in words but in love. Do you remember that night
when you
cried yourself to sleep, or wore sunglasses so no one could see your
tears, or
when the lump in your throat made you run out of a meeting… that was
when
Beloved chose to converse with you.
And you woke that morning when
you thought today you have
them back, Yes sir! Today all things will be fine but news after news
came to
you worsening the situation even more. You are stunned and baffled how
could
this happen? That is the prolonging of your love affair with Beloved!
If you
have what you desire, your heart races back to worshiping and loving
your Self
but this love affair with Beloved must prolong.
Do you remember that day when
your heart emptied, walked the
streets with no desire or dream, no sobs or tears, no pain or pleasure,
if the
sky fell upon your head did not care, that was the moment Beloved’s
Edict
descended upon you “Be Drunken”. You were not walking the streets you
were
walking the path of love.
Recall when crossing the chasm
of anger, “Where is my god to
help me” or “God does not love me any more?” or “Why this is happening
to me?”…
That was the moment your Self commanded you to drop the drunkenness and
“Be
lowly”.
Know that when Beloved loves
someone much, breaks his heart
much. Be aware that which you love, a woman, a child, money, country or
whatever the object of affection, all reside within the treasury of the
Creator. When they are with you they last for few years, they age and
wither or
subject to loss and damage. But if they are taken from you, they are
with
Almighty the inheritor of all things, they are safe in the sanctuary of
Sultan
of Love… Do you still want her? Do you want to play with your child
again? Do
you want to be wealthy again? Then walk the path of love towards the
Beloved.
The pain in your heart assurance that your loved one is safe with The
Majesty,
walk drunken, even run or fly, but be assured that which
is with
the Creator shall last forever and that is the meaning of all heartache
and
loss, Koran[16:96]:
Ansaari
explained in few words the immense
conversation takes place between the Beloved and all Its subjects on
daily
basis. Conversation riddled not by human words, not in religious terms
but by
the words from love, don’t you want to learn the alphabets of love?
Yes! Then
read the book of your life! All is there.
Background: Tell me who else is in this picture with her? Eileen Dodien sits in her one-room
home trying to stay comfortable
while her burns heal. Her face and upper body were severely burned when
a lantern exploded while she was lighting it. Because lantern fuel is
scarce in Cap Haitien, people are using any combustible fuel they can
find, usually gasoline. The fire burned her home and her life savings
of $1,500, which she had hidden in her mattress.
We may differ in the color of
skin, but our hearts break the same.
©
2003-2002,
Dara Shayda
